At this very moment, I don't feel I will be able to handle what's coming.
I am sorry for what has happened and I know that I need some help.
I broke down on Thursday, Nov. 3, and told Sheriff Howard Wells the truth. It wasn't easy, but after the truth was out, I felt like the world was lifted off my shoulders.
I don't get to go out but an hour a day.
I don't know why I did it.
I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for what I have done.
I dropped to the lowest point when I allowed my children to go down that ramp into the water without me.
I felt I couldn't be a good mom anymore, but I didn't want my children to grow up without a mom. I felt I had to end our lives to protect us from any grief or harm.
I felt like things could never get any worse.
I had never felt so lonely and so sad in my entire life.
I have prayed to God that he give me the strength to survive each day and to face those times in my life that will be extremely painful. I have put my total faith in God, and he will take care of me.
I have put my faith in the Lord, and I really believe He's taking care of them. They're too beautiful and precious that He's not going to let anything happen to them.
I knew from day one, the truth would prevail, but I was so scared I didn't know what to do.
I know now that it is going to be a tough and long road ahead of me.
I know that my life is going to be hell from here on.
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