I learned to fly a few years ago in England. It's the only place I'm completely alone - up in the air, detached from everything.
I always wanted a great love affair: something that feels big and full, really honest, and enough. No moment should feel slight, false, or a little off. For me, it had to be everything.
I didn't really want to live, so anything that was an investment in time made me angry... but also I just felt sad. When the hopelessness is hurting you, it's the fixtures and fittings that finish you off.
I've learned that we all change constantly. It's rare to find that person who is growing with you in the same way at the same time, who encourages you to grow.