My idea of absolute happiness is to be in bed on a rainy day, with my blankie, my cat, and my dog.
These days cry out, as never before, for us to pay attention, so we can move through them and get our joy and pride back.
Your problem is how you are going to spend this one odd and precious life you have been issued. Whether you're going to spend it trying to look good and creating the illusion that you have power over people and circumstances, or whether you are going to taste it, enjoy it and find out the truth about who you are.
I see that children fill the existential hollowness many people feel; that when we have children, we know they will need us, and maybe love us, but we don't have a clue how hard it is going to be.