The big message of gospel is that you don't have to keep fighting the universe; you can stop, and the universe is quite good to you. There is a loss of ego.
I think there's a lot of similarity between what people try to do with religion with what they want from art. In fact, I very specifically think that they are same thing. Not that religion and art are the same, but that they both tap into the same need we have for surrender.
Once you've grown to accept something and it becomes part of the system you've inherited, you don't even notice it any longer.
I do sometimes look back at things I've written in the past, and think, 'I just don't remember being the person who wrote that.'